The Big Picture

I used to think that I knew what love was, that was until I
found that I had no idea what love actually was. I was lost, alone, forced to look at
myself in the mirror and accept the truth that I had become a leech, sucking
the life out of others. Friends had broken up with me, some family had broken
up with me. I had all but broken up with myself, but then I decided to make a
change.

I recall saying to a friend “I’ve done the same things over
and over again and continue to get the same results so it’s fine time that I
try to do something different.” He didn’t understand what I meant then. I
hardly understood what I meant, but I knew it was time for a change, so I
embarked on a journey of self-discovery. I started to study myself to learn
more about me, what I liked, what I didn’t like.  I revisited past hurts, guilt, and failures. It
was a painful process, but one that I’m grateful for.

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What I found is that I was incapable of loving anyone else
because I did not love myself. In order to give someone your soul, your life, and
your love you have to first be able to give it to yourself. You cannot give
that which you do not have. Just like you can’t give someone a dollar that you
do not have, you cannot give someone love that you do not first have for
yourself.

So I charge you today, to stand in the mirror and to look at
yourself with fondness, with a full heart, and full of love, say, “I love you.”
Say it as many times as you need to until you have conviction in your heart and
in your spirit, and until it becomes true. “I love you!” For the good, the bad,
and the ugly. “I love you.” With the shame and the doubt, and the guilt. “I
LOVE YOU” With every bad decision made, every wrong turn, every right turn,
every up and down, and every moment. “I LOVE YOU!” With purpose and with truth,
“I LOVE YOU!”




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