05 Jun Re-birthday
Happy Relaunch Day!! I’m so excited to be back with an all new layout, fresh content, and much much more. It’s been over a year since I last updated the site with content and a lot has happened since then. I’ve become a mother, a wife, and an entrepreneur (more on all of that in the weeks to come). Since going through all of these major life transitions, I’ve grown a lot, learned some valuable lessons, and embodied myself more fully.
It was a scary, stressful, and depressing time while going through these transitions, but I survived. It would have been helpful for me to continue writing during that time, but I wasn’t willing to be vulnerable with my experiences. I was going through a normal transition of life, judging myself for experiencing natural emotions and was fearful that everyone else would judge me too. So I didn’t share what I was going through with anyone. I wasn’t willing to write or talk about the crazy, chaotic time of my life because I didn’t know who I could trust.
I wanted desperately for someone to pray with me, to tell me that everything was going to be okay, and to comfort me. Instead I found myself captivated by my thoughts, anger, and depression. This self-destructive behavior led me into a space of isolation and fear. Although I was writing about all the things that I should have been doing in my daily posts, I wasn’t willing to use my own advice. I was all theory and no action. It was easier to write about what to do in life, while I was in good space not going through anything, but once life got me down, all the positive vibes and good energy went out the window.
We all experience setbacks in life, but it’s what we do after our setbacks that determines the nature of our character. I took a pause, but I haven’t stopped and I won’t. I owe it to myself to integrate the things that I’m learning in order to continue to evolve. I don’t want to be someone that always talks about doing something but never does it. So this is my atonement: for being human, for being fearful, for being scared, for not believing, for not trusting, and for losing faith. Now I’m saying goodbye to what was, in order to accept what is, and making room for what’s to come!